When You Can’t Get Back to Normal

When my son died, my world shattered. For years, I tried in vain to get back to “normal”. I wanted so desperately to be the woman I used to be before tragedy tore me apart.

When my son died, my world shattered. For years, I tried to get back to “normal”. I wanted so desperately to be the woman I used to be but...

But it turns out, that woman died the same day her son did. She no longer exists. God, who alone has the power to resurrect, raised up a new woman from the ashes of that death. I am so grateful that God did not leave me as I was when I was broken.

He healed me.

It has taken me a long time, but I can finally say with honesty that I am also grateful He did not leave me as I was before my brokenness.

He made me stronger.

Grieve With Hope

Looking for the Light in the Midst of Your Shadows

Ten years ago today I held my son’s lifeless body in the palm of my hand sobbing with the raw intensity of fresh grief. He had been born into the arms of Jesus bypassing my own arms altogether. My emptiness and sorrow resulting from that loss plunged me into a dark abyss of despair and fear cloaked by a busy life and a practiced smile.

Ten years ago today I held my son’s lifeless body in the palm of my hand sobbing with the raw intensity of fresh grief. He had been born into the arms of Jesus bypassing my own arms altogether. My emptiness and sorrow resulting from that loss plunged me into a dark abyss of despair and fear cloaked by a busy life and a practiced smile.

Easter Through Mary’s Eyes

What was it like to be a mother to God?  It is difficult enough to raise human children.  I can’t imagine having the Most High God Himself in my house as a toddler or a teenager!

Take another look at Easter through the eyes of Mary, the mother of Jesus.

Then Simeon blessed them, and he said to Mary, the baby’s mother, “This child is destined to cause many in Israel to fall, but he will be a joy to many others. He has been sent as a sign from God, but many will oppose him.  As a result, the deepest thoughts of many hearts will be revealed. And a sword will pierce your very soul.”
Luke 2:34-35

In reflecting on the events surrounding Jesus’ death and resurrection, I feel pulled to ponder the events from Mary’s perspective.  We usually think of the mother of Jesus more at Christmas time, but she was very much a part of the first Easter as well.

Several times, Luke mentions in the first couple of chapters of his gospel that Mary pondered the deeper meanings of all that was happening and treasured these things in her heart.  Let’s follow her example and ponder for a while.

Walking on Water: When God Calls You Out of Your Boat

How to Overcome Your Fear and Step Out in Faith

Have you ever sensed God calling you out of your comfy boat to walk the waves beyond? Did you do it? Did you try and then sink like Peter? Or is fear holding you back from even stepping out? What’s keeping you from walking on water? Maybe you still haven’t figured out how to get your boat out of the harbor. I have days like that. I’m right there with you!

Have you sensed God calling you out of your boat? What's keeping you from walking on water? Overcome your fear and step out in faith today!